SAVE LIVES!!!

Dear Friends, family, & blog world,

I will be joining thousands of people nationwide to walk in AFSP's Los Angeles Community Walk to benefit the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.

In 2002 I lost my father Nick to suicide 4 days before Christmas. It was one of the most excruciating times of my life and it forever changed me as a person. Even at 16 I knew that something just wasn't right. My father was diagnosed posthumously with depression and Bipolar disorder. With the help of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, I have been able to educate myself on not only mental illness but also how to cope with losing someone to mental illness.

This organization has not only brought closure and hope to survivor families, but it has saved thousands of lives every day using research, education, outreach, and of course the Life Line.

The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention is at the forefront of research, education and prevention initiatives designed to reduce loss of life from suicide. With more than 36,000 lives lost each year in the U.S. and over one million worldwide, the importance of AFSP's mission has never been greater.

I hope you will consider supporting my participation in this event. Any contribution will help the work of AFSP, and all donations are 100% tax deductible.

Donating online is safe and easy! To make an online donation please click the link below and then the "Support This Participant" button on the page.

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart!!

http://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&participantID=312142

Wedding photo booths are GENIUS!!!

By far the best picture of the night! Cheers to the new Scarpelli's!!!!

my weeks in pictures..

Vanessa's Bday at Howl at the Moon

The Giving Keys

Music Video Shoot for Lauryn Story

Girls day/night...yes those are tampons

My mom spinning the wheel at Happy Ending

Tiffany's display...yum

Gavin

Meg

Bridal party on the loose

B opening up her gift that her hubby sent to her room on the big day

sisters

gorgeous Giada

Tay's new ride

my uncle's hard at work

dream analysis

Usually my dreams are very normal. I don't know why but I'm mostly on the couch watching t.v. or walking around with some people doing nothing important or weird. BUT THE OTHER NIGHT! woah.

It might reflect my life which has been anything but normal lately...or I might just have a really impressive imagination. OK.


So I'm a pirate. I'm being chased by this big and scary man (who looks a lot like my last play director) and he captures me. Now, this is no damsel in distress moment. I'm a fighter. I'm a pirate! But he does capture me. He turns me around and he slowly stabs me twice in the back on either side of my spine. Right after that he proceeds to carve a giant "H" that takes up my entire back.

::footnote:: This dream happened after running into a boy that has been causing problems in my life recently. His name starts with an "H". Coincidence? So far our entire relationship has been coincidence..or "fate" as he calls it. ::puke:: We'll call him "Hasshole", for argument's sake.

Ok so giant "H" on back and the stabs wounds. I'm bleeding like crazy and I then realize that this is all happening under water. So I immediately think that I need oxygen and to swim to the top, but also SHARKS! I am bleeding..

Once I get to the top I see Hasshole and he sees I'm bleeding. He tells me "I know of an underground hospital nearby and they're really good." Some secret door opens (which totally makes sense, as it always does in dreams) and we walk into a strip club. It's loud and dark and I now only have the "H" on my back which is still bleeding, The stabs wounds healed I guess? There is this stripper surgeon and she says she can help me. I, obviously, am skeptic and that offends her. She gets a phone call and it's a casting director telling her that I need to go back or I'll lose my job. "But I'm bleeding!" I say. She points out that I'm not and they are just giant scars now. So I go back and walk onto the set of a Jennifer Lopez music video. I'm one of her dancers and need to get back to work. I'm in a lot of pain but it was still fun. We take a break and Jennifer says "Ok guys, there's a McDonald's and a subway right over there. On me!"

And then I wake up.

So let's recap. I'm an underwater pirate who can withstand a lot of pain, including Hasshole, who takes me to an underground strip club hospital. I heal rather quickly and dance with a very generous Jennifer Lopez.

analyze that shit..

My week in pictures..

Craaaaazy week filled with Vegas, bachelor/bachelorette parties, Thunder From Down Under, DJ Pauly D, Dance rehearsals, Demitri Martin, Hookah, late night eating binges with the homies, cardio barre, lash extensions, Megan and Vanessa's birthdays, The Griddle Cafe, aaaaaand the September issue. Love.